You're So Lucky

Luck
Having, bringing, or resulting from good luck
I was driving on the freeway two hours before my seizure
You’re so lucky
Your girlfriend was in the passenger seat
On the freeway, two hours before you seized.
You’re so lucky
You mean you only lost your licence for six months
You’re so lucky
The doctors found a brain deformity
Technically I should have no range of motion,
In the left side of my body and no capacity
For. Language.
But here I am.
You’re so lucky
What do you mean by that?
To whose standards?
I am lucky because I appear
Normal.
Ordinary.
Just like you.
I know you think I’m lucky because my disability
Isn’t visible.
I’m passable.
But.
Lucky people don’t worry about going unconscious at

the wheel. They don’t worry about the cognitive effects
of medication. Don’t worry about the social implications of
the uncontrollable actions of their brain.
Lucky people blindly go through life without the pressure,
the social weight that stems from their identity
I hope that if I couldn’t speak.
Or move.
Or drive.
Or learn.
Or meet your definition of human life.
Human existence.
You would love me all the same.
So here I’ll wait.
As I am.
Until you come by again to say...
You’re so lucky
Yes.
I’m so lucky.
Because I’m me